I am now nearly 20 weeks pregnant - I'll officially be 20 weeks on Monday.
When I was pregnant with Hayden, I started feeling him move at around 19 weeks. I started feeling this baby move around 17 weeks. Nothing big - just some flutters and subtle movement. This past week though I haven't felt anything. No movement at all.
Everyday I wait and try and feel something, but by the end of the day I haven't felt anything. I am so worried that something is wrong (and not just wrong - but that the baby is no longer alive).
I know I am being a little paranoid. I know that more than likely everything is perfectly fine. But as the week passes and I continue to feel nothing, my level of anxiety increases.
Our "big ultrasound" is this upcoming Monday and I am scared that my worst fear will be confirmed and that this baby won't have a heartbeat (again, I know this seems dramatic). If I could just feel something, I would get that reassurance that I need - but so far, nothing.
I finally confessed these feelings and worries to Randy this morning, and he told me not to think like that - to be positive, because everything is okay. But what if it isn't?
He called me later and told me to just try and relax and that he loves me. He is trying to be really supportive, but at the same time I am just really scared.